I’ve been away from full-time employment for nearly a year now. A big jumble of health and economic factors have made it somewhat difficult to become a working woman again. I haven’t found the perfect job, and I haven’t really been able to make the mediocre ones happen either. My unemployment has done pretty terrible things to my family budget and credit score. I miss the self-esteem boost from a job well done, from my interactions with coworkers, and just GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE. I’ve been working on my medical coding certification, and know my good job is just around the corner. But what do I do in the meantime?

Last week, a friend on Twitter gave me a lead on a paid summer internship with a local company. The work isn’t in my field, but it would bring in some money, get me out of the house, and I’d get the experience of working with a web-based company. I quickly exchanged a few emails, and had an interview set up within a few hours. The interview went well. I knew I didn’t want to do it full-time, but they were happy to work with the very specific hours I requested.

Over the week since my interview, I’ve talked myself into, and out of, taking the position if offered to me. I made the PRO/CON list, I started putting out feelers for childcare, I pulled some of my more professional clothes out of a box. This morning I got the offer, and I’m about 90% sure I’m going to take it. Part of me is afraid that I’ll use it as an excuse to slack on my studies. It’ll mean figuring out childcare for the times that my husband is away…and missing out on the limited time when my husband is in town. It will force me to be a lot more disciplined with my time (which I admittedly need.) But it will also mean that I have a little more free money. I can pick away at some debt, make purchases without monumental guilt, and take some of the financial burden off my husband. But even he is hesitant of me accepting the position. I feel conflicted.

I obviously need to pray about it…but what would you do?